about me

just a typical college student trying to write her feelings away. i hate goodbyes, but write about them the most. i'm creating this so my cringy old blog doesn't follow me here and so that maybe less people who know me will find these. there's something cathartic about putting words out into the world for strangers to read. stick around if you want to hear my ramblings and emotions.

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